Liars are just cowards

Was just thinking about my past relationships and so many of them lied to me and I was thinking why!? I hate lying because once you lie you gotta lie again to cover up that lie and it goes on forever and honestly it's tiring. Why the f do I have to think so hard when I can just simply say the truth. Well and the other part is because I'm such a bad liar you can straight up tell when I'm lying it's like I have a big fat "liar" sticker on my forehead. Lol But really I wondered y ppl lie so much and just figured it out. Ppl lie because their cowards. Their scared they'll get judged, looses someone, get rejected, punished, screwed or anything that'll make them look bad. Doesn't it feel so guilty to lie thou? Yea you get confronted by cheating on someone and you lie and get away but that guilt just sticks by you and haunts you forever. Or at least that's how I feel so it doesn't take me very long to come clean. That was a bad example because it's not like it happened to me but with other occassions. So now I think I'm glad I left my ex bcuz he was too much of a pussy to tell me the truth anyways! How can I be w someone so weak and can't even live up to what he says? Fuckin talk is cheap anyways so I dun really fully listen to ppl, just observe their actions. For all those liars out there fuckin grow some balls and man up!

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Loveless...

So after 4 years of being single (damn that's such a long time) I finally know why it's been so long. I was talking to my friend the other day who knew my ex, my one and only serious relationship guy, who also hurt me bad like baaaaaaad. Anyways I realized that I've been traumatized by my last relationship. Yea, of course I met wonderful people after that but never gotten to commit to another relationship. I always kept a distance and never fully committed to one because I was so scared to fall in love again. People tend to think of me as a type of girl who likes to party, go wild and just do what I want and don't really care. But in reality when I fall for someone or be in a relationship I give my all. I try to become the best gf possible and put so much into the relationship that when it ends it's like the world falls apart. Breaking up with someone you love so much is I'd say the worst feeling possible. I'm such a strong, independent person and have such a tough skin but if I really care for someone I can't just say fuck it and move on. It's not easy to cut somebody off your life when they've been a big part of your life... I should give chances but I realized my biggest fear isn't rejection (cuz that's what I always been saying) it's being in love. I told my parents the last time they were here that I don't think I could get married because A. I'm scared to get hurt B. I feel like I'll fuck it up cuz I could be such a Bitch sometimes C. I can't possibly imagine being with someone for the rest of the life (Not saying I can't be loyal but I can't even be with my best friend for a whole month how the hell am I gonna be with a guy for like the next 50yrs!?)
I just need someone to sweep me off my feet I guess... and take more chances than just closing all the doors.

GUCCI's 'handmade' high heel boot

What the hell!? I mean I love GUCCI and all but $3750 for boots!?! Are u insane!? I will buy a really nice handbag that will last me a lifetime but for shoes!? No way!

Yes, I'm a shoe-holic but I will not spend more than $300 on shoes ok even $200 is cutting it because shoes are so fragile and they get messed up so quickly & easily!

Who buys these stuff? Well obviously the rich and famous but really? There's no sign of GUCCI on this pair of boots! So unless you absolutely LOVE it I dun see anybody buying it...


.... just saying.

My saweeeeet new air force ones!!

Went to Flashbacks today w my family today. If you all dunno what Flashbacks is it's a second hand clothing store. They sell a lot of costume stuff also like wigs, legging tights, tutus... etc
So much fun if you have time to kill you get to find great stuff! Check it out it's on 5th avenue in between University and Robinson Ave.
So today I found the saweeeeeetest Nike's here. Their like pearl white with a silver Nike swish on the side but the soles are rainbow color. It's sooooo cute! Omg I rarely wear sneakers, I'm a total heels kinda girl but I think I might wear these everyday now <3

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